let me let go

why is it that humans are capable of continually caring for something that has time and time again shown that it's not worthy of such dedication and emotion?

why is it that the heart and head can never just agree on what you should feel and think. why can't they just let me let go?

i'm not sure which has let go already. my heart or my head. maybe they've both only let go partially. either way, it's not enough. but i've been starting to acknowledge that maybe this time its my head thats getting in the way, not my heart.

my heart is ready to move on, i really do believe. my head is the only thing standing in my way. i'm hanging on to memories and "used-to-be's" and "what if's" when in reality, none of that will do me any good. i need to let it go mentally. but i just can't help but care. i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

i feel like i know what i need to do. but its a Big. Freaking. Deal. i haven't even verbalized it yet, because its such a scary thought to me. i can't wrap my brain around it yet, it's so intimidating and uncomfortable to think about. but maybe it's just time.

Maybe you and me got lost somewhere

We can't move on or we can't stay here

Well maybe we've just had enough

Well maybe we ain't meant for this love.

-Mockingbird, Rob Thomas