Hopeless

Every once in a while, I just get completely overwhelmed with the state of the world and I realize how hopeless it can seem. With all these people going hungry every night, all these natural disasters robbing people of everything that means anything to them, all these criminals, all this pain and hurt and misfortune in the world...it really hits me that it would take some sort of crazy, huge miracle for all of that to just go away. It really does seem hopeless. It's very discouraging. All I can ask is why? Why do these natural disasters have to rip through countries, destroying homes, communities, families, lives? Why do people have to cheat, steal, lie, murder? That part mostly just disgusts me. It makes me ashamed to be a human.

And I can't make that all go away. Sure, I can change a couple lives, and I hope that I do. But in the grand scheme of things...? I can't change the world. As much as I try, I can't. Sometimes I even feel like changing the life of one person is so far out of my reach.

I never used to see the world's problems as my own, or even really acknowledge that they were there. I never used to feel like this. It feels real heavy.