Absent.

I'm having a rough time this summer. I can't figure out what it is. I keep thinking I just need an attitude check, but that really isn't even cutting it for me. Something just feels off. I feel very disconnected, without an urge to really be connected. If that even makes any sense at all.

I'm not even sure why I'm blogging. I haven't been recently because I feel like nothing I have to write is of any worth or depth. I'm boring myself. I'm writing, but I don't know what about...roaming through my thoughts, and although there are plenty of them, there's not a whole lot that I'm coming up with. Maybe I got lost.

I need some sort of goal for writing. I think...I'm going to start writing what I'm thankful for every day for a while. For the rest of this month, and farther if I feel like it's beneficial. Maybe if I remember all the beauty I have, even when all I'm seeing is the blah, I'll feel a little less apathetic.

I know this isn't me. Something is missing.