I'm about 30 seconds away from a meltdown.

So excuse my frustrations. I'm so much less alone when I'm home from school, but I feel more lonely. Maybe I'm just tired and that's what's causing all this pent up emotion. Maybe it's the lack of people that really "get" me. Maybe it's even just the thought of having to spend all day tomorrow at a preservice meeting for work with a whole bunch of people I don't really know/can't really relate to. Maybe it's this feeling that I'm just used and needed when it's convenient. Maybe it's an accumulation of all the times I've blamed myself when I really have the right to get mad at someone else.

But I miss my roomie and my friends at school. I miss my best friend a whole lot and I don't even know when I'm going to see him again. I feel a teensy bit broken. And I'm all out of tape.