Last night I went to bed because I was so excited to wake up to a new day. Yesterday was so awesome that I couldn't wait to do it all again today. Isn't that crazy?? I don't remember the last time that happened. I think it has a lot to do with this sunny February weather...today's high is projected to be somewhere between 75 and 80 degrees. Yesterday was about the same.
Days like this remind me why I'm absolutely in love with living in Southern California. And as much as I want to travel and experience the world and other cultures and other environments...this will always be my home. I will always thrive on the sun and warmth and the beach and the bright blue sky. Nothing makes me feel at home more than that.
Yesterday after class I went out to the park with Emily and laid in the grass reading (for class of course; life isn't that easy). We drove back to school, stopped to pick up some sodas from the Centrum that we paid for in all change, and then set up lawn chairs in the sun in her front yard and read for another two hours before I went to work. I was so content and blissful. It was such a great feeling; blame it on the extra Vitamin D or whatever you will, but I am going to soak it all in until the rain comes back later this week.
Laying out in the sun and thinking about how content I was, I was also reflecting on how great it is to not feel like I'm searching for something. For the last view years, I've felt this persistent tug in the back of my mind telling me I needed to constantly be looking for something - validation, new friends, better grades, a boyfriend, ways to calm myself down...but I don't feel like that anymore. And this is the longest consecutive time that I haven't felt that way, and I think I'm going to take that as a good sign.
I would love to stay and get really philosophical on here, but the sun is calling my name. ♥
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