Just because you want something, no matter how badly you want it, does not mean you're going to get it. Trying to do everything you can to get it, guarantees absolutely nothing. I'm not being pessimistic, I'm not saying you should never hope to get anything you want or need ever in your life. Hope is a beautiful thing - my blog name isn't just for kicks and giggles. But their comes a point where you have to be accepting and not give up hope, but let go. Most of the time, the harder you try to get something you want or need, the farther from your grasp it gets. Or what's worse, sometimes you can get tantalizingly close - thinking you're actually getting your way - and then it blows up in your face. And you end up farther away and more desperate for it than you were to begin with.
If you've tried your best and can say you honestly put your best foot forward, then you eventually just have to let go. You have to be okay with what you have, happy in fact. You probably have a lot more to be grateful for than you're realizing. And when you take that step back, it makes you wonder what you may have been missing out on the whole time you were on that one-track mind set.
I have to be okay with relinquishing control because in all honesty, in the grand scheme of things, there is very little on this earth that we as people are capable of "controlling." Clinging on to the idea of something and what it could be and this sort of unrealistic type of hope, is not the same as the real idea of hope I have in my heart. That's not really hope, that's an expectation. There is a difference.
Sometimes, as soon as you stop wanting something, you get it. Maybe you won't want it by then, maybe you will want it again. No one knows. But you can't be afraid to let go of it for fear you may not want it later. That's a ridiculous way to live. And I don't know how I've made it this long doing just that. I think I need to change that. It's okay to let go. It really is.
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