"If anyone should ask me to give a reason why
I loved my friend, there could only be one answer:
'Because he was he, and I was I.'"
you do the same thing to me. you push me out of your life. the only boy i've been able to fully trust in years, and you do the same thing to me that they all did. but it's different with you. you can hurt me, you can shove me out of your life - but i made you a promise that i am going to keep. i told you that I would never leave you. i told you that I would always be here for you. i told you that even if you tried to push me away I wouldn't go without a fight. you don't believe my promises now because of what she did, but giving up, i would just be proving myself to be like everyone else in your life. but i'm not like that.
so even though i'm feeling lost. even though i feel that i've been robbed by someone else's broken promise. even though i have days where i feel my foundation has been absolutely shaken and i'm scared to fall to pieces, i will always check my computer in the morning to make sure you've logged on to something, anything; to verify that you are still there and you are still breathing. i will not stop thinking about you or praying for you, or telling you that i love you and miss you. i'm going to keep messaging you and telling you that over and over because even if you don't write back, i know you are hearing it. and if you can know that there is still even one person in this world who has faith in you, even when you've lost all faith in yourself...maybe it might be enough to make a difference.
i promise to be your best friend, whether or not you continue to try and be mine. i will always care for you, i will always worry about you, and i will always be here for you if you ever do decide you want to talk.
"My friend, if I could give you one thing, I would wish for you
the ability to see yourself as [I] see you.
Then you would realize what a truly special person you are."
-B.A. Billingsley
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