Closure

I'm starting my New Year off perfect. Like really, no sarcasm. I feel like a clean slate (or a book with a blank 365 pages, if you're a regular follower). I spent the first 5 pages wrapping up old news and now is when it really begins.

But not without a little writing about the closure today. I don't have a lot to say about it; but I do have something. Most people, myself included, thought I'd found this closure a little over a month ago. I thought I had, but something was still a little unsettling. I don't like being mad at people, particularly when they go away for a long time. So I chose to move passed my frustrations and my fears for a night and just let things be as they had, reassured in the fact that it was definitely the end. And I ended on a good note, just like I wanted to.

I suck at goodbyes. But I said a big one today, whether I want to acknowledge it as being a big one or not. I felt a lot when I drove away, a tear was definitely shed. Not because I feel that I'm going to be missing something, but because I just worry about him. I know this is going to be good for him though, and good for me too.

Goodbye sense of obligation and sense of settling, I wish it hadn't been this way and that I was enough to cause a change, but I wasn't and I won't ever be. And you know what? That is completely okay. One door closes, but that doesn't mean there aren't plenty more that are already open and just waiting to be tried.